it's quite amazing . how an idea can be thought of, written down, but never expounded on. its silence and its incompleteness can be kept for weeks. maybe months. as far as a year. but our mind never loses grips with an idea that was thought. our mind never relinquishes the flavor of a subject that ignites inspiration to act on. something. i can recite piece after piece in my mind without having it written down. i can scribe a title without ever expounding on it. i can snap a photo of a figure and not sketch out the peace i felt in it. but once i feel led to express - no matter how long after - i can , i will , and i did. it's quite amazing.
never let go of an idea.
do not believe it will be lost.
always come back to recover what was left to rest.
Life is becoming more beautiful to me as each day passes. Gods mercies are new, like the dew atop the blades of grass, each and every day. that's something to smile about.
i was told to forget and to never remember. a face that once was so clear became so smeared to me. and it's not a bad thing. it's a good thing. it's a God thing. to refocus my focus on a presence so much greater. much realer. much clearer. i was taught not to care. and i don't. and i am in a vehicle. moving. gradually. quickly. slowly. vastly. authenticity. i'm receiving it now. thanks be to God - He went to sleep real, and He woke up realer. i have hope and peace in that. thanks be to God, it was not in you, or you.
pray for a clear mind and heart.
see others as Christ sees them.
dig into the Word - there is treasure.
think peace. think joy.
breathe peace. breathe joy.
always remember, the Son shines brighter in your darkest days ... and nights.
words will never ever be enough to express the gratitude i have for being the little sister to this big brother. i am overly overwhelmed to say thank You God for a brother like mine. he may never ever know the immense impact he has had in my life, but he has had one. really, i could not ask for another sibling because he has everything i would ever want in a brother. he and my mother are a major inspiration and motivation in my life. no one compares to them. no one ever will. i love you, brother. more than you will ever know. my heart beats a special tune each time i think of you, only for you. you are so special to me. i love you. thank you for being in my life the way that you have been - you just don't know. :)
the sound in this photo , i wish it were playing now. calming. soothing. freeing. the fountains played a symphony that made the dragonflies dance with the wind to the tunes of the drops beating the ripples of the already settled water. it was magnificent. and the way the sun reflected on the water, the way the Son reflects each one of us whether we acknowledge it or not, it remarkable. it amazing. we share love. we share grace. we share mercy. we share forgiveness. we share gentleness. we share joy. or at least we should. it's not easy. and i know the sun doesn't like burning the water . striking the water with its rays. i know the sun doesn't like that. but i know the Son would love us to reflect His light in the midst of a dank world. we got the long end of the stick.
i wake up to a sound mind each and everyday. to ears that are able to hear. to a mouth that is immutable. to eyes that can see further and more clear than many. to eyes that can see. to a mouth that can speak. to ears that can listen. to hands that are mobile. to hands that can hold. to legs that are intact. to legs that can walk. to a mind that can think straight. all by the grace of God.
i can read. i am literate. i am able to articulate. i am in school. i have excelled to higher education. i am able to pick up a book and read it. i can sit inside of a classroom. i have computer access. i go to a school with a library that holds countless books. i have instructors that care. all by the grace of God.
i have a warm meal everyday. i drink clean water. i am able to eat and drink food to nourish my body. on a day to day basis. i am not starving. i am not malnourished. i am not drinking polluted water. all by the grace of God.
i sleep in a bed. in a private space. by myself. safely. with a comforter. with an additional blanket. with pillow on top of pillow on top of pillow. in comfort. protected. in a bed by myself. all by the grace of God.
i have so much to be thankful for, but i am not grateful enough to say thank you. when will contentment be the characteristic of undeserving human beings like me?
i take it all for granted - i'm completely dissatisfied. time for change. time for change.