freedom cannot come without sacrifice and an attitude of surrender.

two hundred-four.

human nature.

i have found a place

a place of quietness,

the kind that is stiff

but flexible at the same time.

the kind that is affordable,

but expensive all in one.

the kind that flows effortlessly

but has a tight order.

i have discovered a place

where only my mind and my body

and my spirit fit.

and it's perfect because in it,

it takes my mind off of

me.

moments, they come and they go.

these same eyes see what joy smells, feels and taste like. but looking at them right here, right now, one would not believe that. she fought to hold back the thought of dreaming that night but as soon as slumber clocked in, her weaponry fell to her feet and these eyes, those eyes, her eyes saw a moment that came quickly and left swiftly. and without her consent, the dream slipped into reality and came true. and her eyes, those eyes, these eyes remained as dry as they could possibly be until reality picked up the phone and delivered the news. she fell asleep, again and relentlessly rocked back and forth, repeating one thing in her mind, "for those who love God all things work together for good." her weary body swayed back and forth remembering that sovereignty belonged to the creator of the universe and that her "why's" did not need to be answered. her signature did not need to be submitted to the one who rules all. her consent was not needed and this fight was not hers. these eyes, those eyes, her eyes see joy today. even when they appear to look saddened by the happenings of yesterday, her eyes see joy today. believe her when she says it visually, "my eyes see joy today."

two hundred-three.

i dare you.

to behave towards a human being

as though they do not really exist

as if their appearance on earth is

a mirage and they are not real.

sooner or later, that idea will

become permanent and your reaction

won't be of happiness or gladness,

i dare you.

treat them like you never knew them

and as if you wish that they would disappear

from the face of the earth, i dare you.

sooner or later, they will and trust me,

you won't be filled with joy.