fall has come with all of its beauty and all of its bustle. fall had its plan before it came and in its plan, fall had tons of lessons to put forth to teach. and i know i'm not the only one sitting in its class, taking notes and hoping for simpler tests.
fall is so beautiful and it's always the most anticipated. however, when i look at falls record, i see the most difficult lessons being replayed. how can something so beautiful carry so much weight and anxiety each time it arrives?
with its calming colors, havoc always runs through like a wind rushing through a pile of neatly raked leaves. how can fall be so beautiful with this type of reputation? how can fall be so beautiful with a name that carries such a negative connotation? why are you most loved when you bring the most lament, according to my records?
well, that's the problem. fall never had intentions to break and tear and torment any soul that tries to survive. fall is well thought out and plans strategically in order to teach effectively and see remarkable results. fall never once thought of you as a target but as a prized gemstone that must feel pain before it feels and remembers its purpose. fall never once was given hands of torture but of tenderness and gentleness to nurture and to calm and to grow, even while things get old and fall, in fall.
the issue is expectation. holding the expectation of great things and having eyes filled with everything perfect so that when something unexpected occurs, you erupt and blow up and you become that neatly raked pile that is scattered by the rush of the wind during fall. because you didn't expect it. you tried to keep yourself together by raking and raking and working and working that you forgot, you're not in control. you can't avoid the blow. you can't prevent the wind. fall won't ever adapt to your wants, it will only provide what you need.
you've got to look up and learn that fall is still beautiful, your eyes and heart have just been distorted by what's to your left and what's to your right. things that glimmer are not always worthy to be praised. no. things that glimmer are not always worth your attention. so listen to the root of your spirit and not the tip of the branch that has grown and grown to its point of becoming brittle and falling right off in fall.
you've been planted so deeply into a soil that sustains your trunk throughout all seasons - although fall has been a repeat offender, you've come out each time stronger and with more wisdom. see the beauty in the pain and in realizing your purpose. don't point fingers at what has happened but point to what's to come. seriously. stop looking back and catch up to what awaits.
fall came quick this year because it's you that always anticipates. love to learn. learn to love.
- appreciate every second of every relationship
- be thankful that you're alive again
- be at His feet and be still
- love the arrival and accept its departure
- breathe, take time and just. breathe.
