you know how it gets sometimes. when you're sitting alone. and you have this movie reeling in your mind. and you drift away. and you become engulfed with a space that once was vacant but now holds all the memories you thought had been shredded when you physically deleted and dismantled every last bit of every last thing that was a one way ticket to remembering. and once you're there, subconsciously, you become enraptured and confined and petrified. all things work together for the greater good, for those who Love Him. "thought what i wanted was something i needed. when mama said no, then i just should have heeded." there's a way to exit it all. if i could just lift this heaviness off the palm of my hands to place what really matters in it. *shrug* it goes on ... and on ... and on ... "content because that part of my life is finished." even when i'm sad ... Joy still lives. and it will live forever.
